Hello guys,

How are you ?
This is a random post blog about my feeling as "game dev" because I had an experience who made me remember one of the few reason why my previous project : Bloody Rose has gone on break for a long time.

I won't deny what I wrote over there as my last message.
But I forgot to say that there were other reasons even if 90% is my fault why the project has gone on break until I gather more experience.

One of the reasons are the loneliness and be powerless.
Loneliness because even if people tell you your project is pretty, they will be actually almost none who will lend you a hand when you're in need. Or worse, there will be none who give a smile at least.

The feeling of being powerless... I have tried so hard to make Bloody Rose SBS similar to the default Rpg maker Mv SBS... hahaa... isn't it funny ? I passed like 2 years spaming forums to ask for help "please help me make a simple SBS that "works". In the end I even had to commission coders because almost none were willing to help me freely.

I became lonely to fight alone : "no, I don't want to abondon my project, I can save it if I spend money on it at least" and "Please mister, I help me. I know my project script list is ugly but I tried my best to save it!".

Of course they were many passerby helpers who came to temporaly help me and I will never foget them but I still ended alone.

After 2 years of running after scripters to have a decent SBS and menu, I kinda ran out of passion/breath for Bloody Rose... Reviving this feeling even temporaly is sad.

If I could draw you a picture of my experience with Bloody rose, it would be : me, on the road, in the dark, with many candles lighten along the way. But it's still dark.

So I really appreciate that some of you gave a chance to me and this new project because I'm trying to "fall in love again" with game making.