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Been awhile since I posted. My year has not turned out like I hoped. My attempt at moving failed, my laptop was destroyed in said attempt, and then my brother passed away this month...I inherited his beast of a computer, but using it feels bittersweet knowing he's gone and I can't speak to him.
Anyway...I hope to rekindle my presence and try to be here if anyone needs a tester. Hope you guys are doing well, or at least managing.
Anyway...I hope to rekindle my presence and try to be here if anyone needs a tester. Hope you guys are doing well, or at least managing.
Hey, Punk! Welcome back!
So sorry to hear about your brother :( I hope for brighter days to come for you and yours.
So sorry to hear about your brother :( I hope for brighter days to come for you and yours.
author=InfectionFiles
Hey, Punk! Welcome back!
So sorry to hear about your brother :( I hope for brighter days to come for you and yours.
Hey, thanks man. It came so suddenly and we're all still devastated by it. My mom suffered the worst from this and me...I've been an emotional wreck and been feel hollowed out from his sudden departure.
Just trying to reclaim life one day at a time so I can feel normal again.
I missed you lot while I was gone.
Sorry to hear about your brother's passing, man *hugs* that's gotta be rough... hope next year is better for you!!
author=kentona
oh dang.
sorry for your loss
Thank ya, Kent <3
author=zacheatscrackers
Sorry to hear about your brother's passing, man *hugs* that's gotta be rough... hope next year is better for you!!
Thank ya, my dude. It has been rough. Moms been cleaning up and fixing up his place (not in disrepair, but he became somewhat of a recluse) and its been messing with her. Can't say I don't know how it feels.
Had to go down there to take a bath (plumbing problems at the parents) and...it was weird.
My brother was a weird guy but he always meant well. Whenever I would stay over and go for a bath, he'd always call out "Got everything ya need bud?"
I sat in that bath tub waiting on that and it just..tore me up inside. Even walked out and said "Hey!"...to an empty house.
But yeah. *hugs* I hope the next year is better for me too. This year has broken me down a bit.
I've never believed in life after death, but if anything comes close to making me, it's this. Sorry to hear
Maybe it's just the dead living on through your thoughts, or maybe it's a ghost. Either way that's real and powerful. Sorry for your loss
author=StevieRayBones
To lose a brother...I moved on my own where I live now.I adopted a couple of knuckle heads I called brothers. One of them died young. Every movie, every beer, every love interest, and every friend he preached about. So passionate for all he loved; yet so diverse in all he delt with.
He died. This leaves a ghost above my head every day. There's jokes I can tell to nobody: except I look up and thell them to his ghost.
He haunts me but sits across from me. I tell him shit like "what do you want to do other than this job?" I asked him that and will continue for the unforsseable future...But somehow I know he lived his 30 yrs to the fullest and he lives on in me and others whom he touched during his ever fun-loving mortality.
Man, I wish my brother had as much passion as that but he was a jaded guy from the hand he was dealt in life. Lost eighty percent of his hearing on side of his head from a young age, then he developed this cluster on his brain (the same cluster that erupted and caused his death) and went from being generally a lanky white boy with a semi-decent social life to being a shut in.
And in his own way I think he tried to advise me to just be smart about my choices. He enjoyed hearing me talk about things in my life - like my time in Germany? I was stoked to sit down, show him the pictures, talk about all that I saw and did and...well, can't now. I mean I can talk to him. And will be going to visit his grave tomorrow...
And I'm not even close to ready.
LockeZ

I'd really like to get rid of LockeZ. His play style is way too unpredictable. He's always like this too. If he ran a country, he'd just kill and imprison people at random until crime stopped.
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You're not wrong.
I foolishly said I would record them, then I played and recorded about four of them, then I got laryngitis and bronchitis and couldn't talk for several weeks. And then I just never picked the rest of them back up.
I foolishly said I would record them, then I played and recorded about four of them, then I got laryngitis and bronchitis and couldn't talk for several weeks. And then I just never picked the rest of them back up.