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I'm BACK, baby! - More of a life update than a game update tbh

Wow! It's beeen a while... where to start...?

Let's address the elephant in the room: I was inactive for months.
Which, to be frank, makes me feel disappointed in myself, because I promised myself that in order to finish it, I would work on this game one hour a day, no matter what.
And I didn't.

Which has multible reasons.


One: My job.

I was working in a call center. (Well... technically I still am, but I'll be quitting at the end of this month, so I'mma use past tense.) The pay was decent and my coworkers were nice. But the customers... oh the customers.

There was hardly a day where I wouldn't end up in the bathroom crying my eyes out cuz another customer shouted at me for something I had no control over. I know I shouldn't have let it hurt my feelings, but it's hard to stay professional and not take it personally when the people on the other side of the phone insult me by saying I was dumb and incompetent - one even called me mentally unstable.

It fucking drained me. Working there was mentally exhausting, so I had no energy for anything or anyone.
The irregular work schedule didn't exactly help.

But FINALLY I'm free!

I found a new job - or rather an apprenticeship(?), the German word is Ausbildung.
And I can't wait to start! I've been searching for a new job almost as long as I've been working this one.

The new job will give me more regular work times and I won't have to work 6 days a week anymore. I'll have weekends again, which will give me more time to work on the game.


Two: My relationship.

With this one, I don't wanna get in too much detail. Firstly, because no one here knows me too well and secondly because it's not something I want to publicly dissect. But it's relevant to the reason why I wasn't active at all, so I wanna address it.

Not only was work draining me, but my relationship was too. I felt horrible while being at work, but my private life made me miserable too. Safe to say, I was in a dark place at the time.
In Janurary, I broke up with my S/O - and I've been feeling better ever since, I even have a new boyfriend now. Lemme just say, I think it's really funny that I actually met him through this website - his "name" is Punk_Kricket.

Like I said, I've been feeling a lot better.


Three: Money.

I know, this one is kind of stupid, but hear me out.

Technically, you don't need money to make a good/decent game, I know that. And maybe I'm way too ambitious - but I want custom pixel/sprite art so badly..
It's something that has been on my "have-to-have-in-my-game-list" since the very beginning. And I obviously wanna pay the artist for their hard work.

What happened was, that I had been saving money, so that I could comission an artist for sprite art. But then, unexpectedly, my phone broke. And I had to use the money I had saved up for that.

(I'm still thinking about making a patreon page. I dunno if I asked the last time I posted something about it, but if any of you guys have experience with patreon, I'd really appreciate it, if you wrote in the comments or hmu on twitter or something.)

Between that setback, my shitty job and my fucked up private life, I lost most of my motivation.


So... yeah. Now you know.

Those were the reasons why I was inactive for nearly 8 months.


Phew, that post was kind of depressing. And long.
Sorry about that.

But! I'm getting back on track.
And now that I have Punk, I am even more motivated to start working on the game again, since he wants to help me as much as he can.
Plus, I'll ask him to kick my ass if I don't continue.

I will keep you guys updated. I promise. (If anyone even cares anymore, heh.)

I'll try to post a blog entry every other week - unless there is nothing to talk about. In that case I don't wanna write some useless nonsense - at least I don't wanna write more nonsense than I usually do.


As always, thanks for reading my blog.

Until next time!




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You still exist, yay!! Seems like you've had a rough time, I'm glad to hear it's going better now. I also have the custom assets from paid artists on my "have-to-have-in-my-game-list" so you're not alone on that one. I just don't have a job with a monthly income to do that just yet. :V

author=SoulsMindPalace
I will keep you guys updated. I promise. (If anyone even cares anymore, heh.)


I still care >:V

Anyhow, good to have ya back, if ya want I can also kick yer ass about the progress of the game, I've been babysitting one or two people on the RMN discord server about their games so I dare say I have some experience >.>

Sooz
I need not remind you that water is the natural enemy of the werewolf.
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Go forth and mak gam!
author=OzzyTheOne
You still exist, yay!! Seems like you've had a rough time, I'm glad to hear it's going better now. I also have the custom assets from paid artists on my "have-to-have-in-my-game-list" so you're not alone on that one. I just don't have a job with a monthly income to do that just yet. :V

author=SoulsMindPalace
I will keep you guys updated. I promise. (If anyone even cares anymore, heh.)


I still care >:V

Anyhow, good to have ya back, if ya want I can also kick yer ass about the progress of the game, I've been babysitting one or two people on the RMN discord server about their games so I dare say I have some experience >.>


Yeah I still exist haha... I'm really glad you still care!

And sure, please help with keeping me in check! I can use all the help I can get.
I've been too nervous to active on discord tbh, but I'll try to be better about that :3

Maybe I could also ask on discord about how to use CSS to customize my game page a bit more lmao

Anyways, thanks for not giving up, Ozzy :)



author=Sooz
Go forth and mak gam!


Yessir!
NeverSilent
Of course I'm insane. What's your point?
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Hey! It's good to have you back! I was hoping you'd return soon, and now you did! I'm glad to hear that after all that unpleasant stuff, things are looking up for you now. Best of luck with the further development of this game, and any other personal projects you're tackling. You can do it!
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