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Marrend
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I've been having some interesting (to say the least) dreams of late. Before I forget them entirely....

Dream 1

I was some kind of big-wig in an apartment complex. I wanted to go to my room on the 15th floor (the complex had 20 floors). On the way to the elevator, I passed by a girl from high school I had a crush on. We exchanged glances. I got the impression that she wasn't particularly impressed with me, but, I wasn't exactly "with it", was in any kind of position to actually impress.

Anyway, I got on the elevator, but got off on the next floor. Talk about not being with it! So, I get back on, and I thought, "Man, now I have to ride this all the way, then use the stairs to get to where I need to be." I know that's not how elevators work in reality, but, yeah.


Dream 2:

I must have been back in high school, since there was some kind of parade that involved my class. My classmates were searching for a particular person that was of import, and nobody was available to actually participate in the parade. I eventually reasoned that our class should be represented in some way, and if I was going to do it alone, so be it.

Aside: I had Odin Sphere's "Valkyrie March" running through my head the entire day after waking up.


Dream 3:

Just had this one. It started out with a gathering of friends doing some role-playing. We sat in a line, and I was the last person in that line. So, obviously, it started with the person after me, but, would presumably rotate back to me. Except it never did.

The dream somehow transmuted into a family reunion. I recall being thirsty. Anyway, a song started up, and it was the battle theme from Luxaren Allure. I was like, "Somebody tell me they've played this game!" No response.

The dream transmuted again. I was still thirsty, and I was looking at a much of food stalls. None of them had any liquid. There was yogurt in at least one of them that I was eyeing up, but I passed it, and was never able to find it again.



Personal interpretations later.
Marrend
Guardian of the Description Thread
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Interpretations:

Dream 1:

This was a dream of missed opportunity. I wanted to rectify my "mistake" in regards to the girl, and go back for her. Except I was "too late". I could not use the elevator to go back down. I could only use it to go up. I couldn't use the staircase either, except from the top floor to the 15th floor.


Dream 2:

This was a dream of abandonment. The focus that everybody else has was on finding this one person, at the expense of all else. It didn't matter to them if we were represented in the parade or not.


Dream 3:

This one jumped all over the place, but, I believe it's also a dream of abandonment. I was "left out" from the RP, "left out" by being the only person to have even heard of Luxaren Allure, and "left out" from getting the product that I actually wanted.


Miscellaneous observations:

In all of these dreams, it is very difficult for me to obtain what I'm looking for. While I may have wanted to "go home" in Dream 1, the reasoning of wanting to go back to "the girl" (or whatever she might represent) exists. With Dream 2, I guess one could argue that I was looking for somebody else to come with me in the parade as to not look like a complete idiot. With Dream 3, there are three instances of me wanting something (my turn in the RP, some kind of reciprocal recognition, and yogurt/water?), and not getting it.

So, the next question is, is there something in real-life that would cause me to have this sensation of being left out? One thing I thought of off-hand, I'm seeing how unity and Red_Nova have this agreement about play-testing each others games. Which is a really neat arrangement! I guess I'm a bit envious of that. Another thing I thought of off-hand is a friend of mine from the Heartache forums that I'm basically afraid to talk to. It's a bit complicated as to why, but, suffice it to say, the last time I tried to talk to him, he brushed me aside.

Aside: I think I need a hug. Or fifty. Thousand.

Red_Nova
Sir Redd of Novus: He who made Prayer of the Faithless that one time, and that was pretty dang rad! :D
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*Hug*

Marrend, you want to know how unity and I started testing each others games? The same way I learned about you and your games when you offered to look at Soul Sunder if I looked at Okiku. And it went from there.

I'm sure I can speak for unity when I say that, when it comes to us at least, we are NOT leaving you out at all. So don't feel that way!

*2nd hug*
unity
You're magical to me.
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*Huuuugs *

Dittoing what Red Nova said. If you ever want to do a tester-exchange for games (I test yours, you test mine) let me know ^_^
nhubi
Liberté, égalité, fraternité
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*Hug*

also please accept this magical book of hug vouchers, they can be redeemed at any time with no questions asked and when you cash in the last voucher the book magically refills.

Use at will.
Man we should start a thread for talking about dreams. Dreams are coolio.
Marrend
Guardian of the Description Thread
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Awwwww! Geeze, guys. *sniff*

@unity/Red_Nova: Maybe I felt "left out" because I don't have anything to test while you two seem to be all over the place? It could just be Remnants of Isolation being the featured game, and beaming down at me with all it's awesomeness. Maybe it's seeing Psychostatus' gamepage and unity's comment on it. Perhaps some combination of the two, and other additional factors. However, I must submit that these factors probably had an affect on my overall interpretation.

Though, to my defense (if you want to call it that), there should be testing possibilities in regards to Oracle of Askigaga and Konae's Investigations somewhere down the line. If I'm good/lucky, Legacy Reborn will be ready to be tested before the Raise the Dead event concludes.
Red_Nova
Sir Redd of Novus: He who made Prayer of the Faithless that one time, and that was pretty dang rad! :D
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@unity/Red_Nova: Maybe I felt "left out" because I don't have anything to test while you two seem to be all over the place? It could just be Remnants of Isolation being the featured game, and beaming down at me with all it's awesomeness. Maybe it's seeing Psychostatus' gamepage and unity's comment on it. Perhaps some combination of the two, and other additional factors.

Chalk this up to my lack of self confidence when it comes to Psychostasis. I'm always nervous about my mouth writing checks that my games can't cash, so I tend to just quietly slip the game pages into RMN and gauge the initial reaction. unity found out because we just happened to be talking about different things and the game page just kinda got brought up.

I was loud about Remnants of Isolation because of how excited it made me. I could say without a shadow of a doubt that I had ZERO confidence issues about it, unlike Soul Sunder or even now with Psychostasis.

Though, to my defense (if you want to call it that), there should be testing possibilities in regards to Oracle of Askigaga and Konae's Investigations somewhere down the line. If I'm good/lucky, Legacy Reborn will be ready to be tested before the Raise the Dead event concludes.

I'll be all over those games when you're ready for testing. Heck, I just might give Konae's Investigations a shot anyway!

EDIT: Aside: I'm chuckling a little at how you misspelled Psychostasis. I remember when you misspelled Soul Sunder a long time ago (I think you called it Soul Sender?). I'm not mad, I just thought it was a bit funny.
Marrend
Guardian of the Description Thread
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The feedback that I've gotten on the supposedly-2/3-done-demo of Konae has been rather disappointing. I ultimately want to get back to it, but, my priority was Oracle. Until Revive the Dead shambled over, and my priority became Legacy Reborn.

Ugh. I sorta hate having three games hanging over my head like this.
Marrend
Guardian of the Description Thread
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I've been ruminating over this, and may have come up with an alternative interpretation.


Consider this post for a moment. Consider, also, that the night of the 13th, not all that long after I posted that, was when Dream 2 occurred, and that Dream 3 occurred the very next night. I'm not sure, exactly, where Dream 1 falls in this sequence, but, it might be possible that these dreams are about the instances of romance in my life. Or, rather, the lack thereof.

Let me attempt to put it into perspective. The girl from high school that I had a crush on in Dream 1? Possibly a physical manifestation of my perceived chances at romance. That she was not impressed with me speaks volumes on this point. As for the other two dreams where I'm being "left out"? The theory would be that my subconscious is responding to the post I made in karins_soulkeeper's status.

Aside: I might be thinking on this too hard.

Marrend
Guardian of the Description Thread
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I, uh, practically just had yet another one.


I was getting up from a long sleep, and I was looking out the open front door. As I gained consciousness, I started to recognize what was happening. We had a few old friends over, and they were just about to leave. Indeed, some had already left. There was even talk from my folks apologizing for how I overslept their stay.

I bolted out, and greeted a group of them that was left with a hug. It was... pretty awkward, actually. They had to leave, and here I was, making that action more complicated.


Current interpretation:


So, here I am, yet again, missing out. I don't doubt the relation this has to Dream 2 & 3. Considering the sense of annoyance from those that I embraced, there may be a connection to Dream 1 as well. I may have to reassess what my subconscious believes I'm missing out on, though.

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