WHAT ARE YOU IN THIS FOR?

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Adon237
if i had an allowance, i would give it to rmn
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author=Newblack in IRC
Newblack goes up to chick
hi, i make rpgmaker games!
Newblack is rejected.
I really adore RMN. It's really the beast best community out there, truly amazing, and with such a fun, intelligent and functional userbase (though everyone thinks otherwise, bitches), so many inspiring artists! And i don't mean visual artists, I mean, musicians, programmers, writers, every aspect of gamemaking is skillfully covered by our userbase. Everyone with its speciality. I confess I cried when RMN was to be closed earlier this year, because I felt like if my homg, museum and atelier were all burnt to ashes and I'd have to sleep in the rain.

That being said, i'm in RMN to grow and to watch people grow. :]

And yeah, I'm awful at expressiveness.
kentona
Your mom is a hero
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I got 99 problems but a switch ain't one.

RMN's been very good to me, both in the sense of giving me a cool place to hang out on the internets, and in the more fundamental sense of giving me a place to host my downloads and show off my RPG making prowess. also, i secretly enjoy being adored by people
Adon237
if i had an allowance, i would give it to rmn
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author=kentona
I got 99 problems but a switch ain't one.

RMN's been very good to me, both in the sense of giving me a cool place to hang out on the internets, and in the more fundamental sense of giving me a place to host my downloads and show off my RPG making prowess. also, i secretly enjoy being adored by people

I love that song. :3
And also, you are secretly adored by all of the epic people here on RMN.
Adon237
if i had an allowance, i would give it to rmn
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No, it was a joke. :3 I am sure a lot of people despise Kentona too.
Why do you despise Kentona? Also you missed some areas.
Adon237
if i had an allowance, i would give it to rmn
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author=ZPE
Why do you despise Kentona? Also you missed some areas.

I never said I despise him :P and what areas?
author=ZPE
Why do you despise Kentona? Also you missed some areas.

I think he meant to as in in addition to what he just said, not in addition to himself.
Dudesoft
always a dudesoft, never a soft dude.
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This topic is getting too personal.. Where's Clyve? We need a troll.
benos
My mind is full of fuck.
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For the lulz of course.

No, but to try and enjoy what I make before I GET too bored with making too many that I already have. I spend too much time, and need more inspiration. Properly working on it less, and few dialouges would get me though.
I like turtles.
Yellow Magic
Could I BE any more Chandler Bing from Friends (TM)?
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TROLL ALERT!!! TROLL ALERT!!!!



IT'S A dfasfsdTROLL!!!!! dasfsdfRUN!!!!!!






AH!!! dfasfdsfasddfsTROLLfasdfsdasdfdasf!!!
chana
(Socrates would certainly not contadict me!)
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Yeah, let's make this the official troll alert! (neat too, saved, ready to serve!)
I do it for various reasons.

First of all I do it as a hobby. I do enjoy writing stuff and use any mediums to give it life, it be animation, videogames, book, etc.

Secondly, I decided to come back here for my CV also. Having a game, even only on RPG Maker, that you designed yourself and that ends up being well designed is a great line in your CV when you're starting from nothing and you want to work in the industry.

I also do it simply because I constantly think of ideas, scenarios, etc. It's a way for me to evacuate most of my creative energy and to feel sane.

I do it for self-esteem. I'm not the kind of guy that has a lot of self-discipline. So I personnally know how much certain of my projects are advanced but from an exterior point of view I'm constantly judged as if I wouldn't do shit, which is false. With the years that negativity starts to hit the self-esteem at one point and creating something "real" is a good way to be proud of myself and to get rid of that feeling.

Finally I do it for recognition. I really enjoy sharing my work with other human beings. And it happened a few times with other type of projects (non-videogames) that I had a pretty good amount of people consuming my product and giving me good feedback, staying in touch with me to know more about the lore, etc. I really enjoy those interactions when people get curious about things I imagined.
Here is my storys, starting at a young age.
when I was very young, say 4 or something, I saw my dad making a game, I was wondering what he was making and thought it was cool, though I don't really remember knowing that word back at the time. Again I saw my dad again, and I noticed that he was talking to me as I asked questions about what he was doing, realizing it was called RPG maker, didn't tell me which version though. As I saw my dad with different versions, I wanted to try, my first try sucked horribly,because I didn't know the controls, my first try was on RPG maker for the playstation, I was using an emulator. And I cooled down after a while, and stopped trying for a long time.


My middle days, around 7 years old I believe?
I was going around Youtube and was typing in random stuff when I found a few RPG maker VX videos. I got pretty excited, and wanted to try it out. When I found out it was kinda difficult to get the stuff you need, and that you needed money/a keygen. My dad helped me by using his keygen and I used it whenever I could. Then the computer had to be restarted and my dad imported XP on to the computer after that and gave me the same keygen he used for XP. A while later, my girlfriend Julia saw what I was doing and wanted to try, when my dad found out I was downloading loads of stuff, putting viruses on the computer. He told me never to download anything else, even though I did and it seemed like he was allowing me to. And I got 2000 after that, then even got 2003 after that, though this was about 2 years ago at 9-10 years old when I was in 5th grade. Anyways, I started to realize that I wanted other to play my games and found this place during my Pyro season, in me and Julias school game Imagination adventure, a show in your mind, and named myself PyroBoom! You probably don't know Pyroboom, cause he was here during a short time, something or someone hacked into all my accounts and deleted them. And when I realized there was nothing I could do, I quit trying to find a way to share my games.


And now, in the present day at the age of 12, soon to be in November, 13...
I tried my best at game creation and sometimes just got plain bored of it, but never gave up, trying to find the next best game creator. And to my suprise, 2003 is the only one that will work completely. 2000, I probably got the wrong RTP, and VX has to high of resolution for Windows 7, so I'm stuck with 2003. 20XX doesn't even work unless I'm installing it wrong! But when I found this place again, it was for tutorials to teach me some things, and then I joined for my tutorials and to post in the forums, and I had got done with reading the hunger games and felt like making a game on it. And that's why I stayed here, to create games and share them like everyone else!


You know, for 3 different stories, I might as well just said, "This is really long, go do something else worth of your time"lol!
I just do it for fun. The whole idea of creating your own world, filling it with your own characters, and then throwing in a story that is completely yours. I sort of surprise myself with the things I can think of.
Max McGee
with sorrow down past the fence
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I got 99 problems but a switch ain't one.

/me dies of Win poisoning.

***

Anyway, I have posted the long version of the story of Max McGee elsewhere on here. I don't have the energy right now to think about it again and repost.

In all seriousness, I am motivated by hubris, ambition, spite, and a desire for praise and recognition. To make the haters eat their words, which is of course, a logical fallacy; the very thing that makes haters haters is a lack of intellectual honesty. The quality of my work is irrelevant to their response; one cannot 'show them'; they cannot be shown.

I want to be the best...the best there ever was. Of course that's not why I do it.

I do it because I cannot not do it. It's like a disease.

Every earnest effort I have made to stop has utterly failed. I'm a quitter: I've given up on the possibility of giving up. So there is, actually, a disconnect between my objective and why I do it and the way I do it. I realized long ago that I was not going to get the degree of success that motivates me, that game making and participating in this community does not often make me happy; but I still can't stop because this is something I need to do.

I gots all these games in me son, and they just need to get out! So, I guess..."because it's fun", but I hate that answer. Because 90% of the time 90% of game making is grueling, tedious, difficult work. But I mean 'because it's fun and I like it' is probably the closest thing to an intellectually honest answer I can muster about why I'm still in this game after all these years. The day is coming and hopefully relatively soon where I will stop being "Max McGee" but the day where I can actually stop making games is one I cannot imagine. Maybe when I turn 30 and/or am married with a family (whichever happens first) I will seriously reevaluate, but looking at some community fixtures, I'm not sure if even that can happen.

Till the roof comes off, till the lights go out Till my legs give out, can’t shut my mouth. Till the smoke clears out - am I high? Perhaps. I'ma rip this shit till my bones collapse.
I seriously don't even know anymore. My project was lost in a hard-drive crash months ago and I haven't touched RPGMaker since, yet somehow I still pull up the site at least weekly. It's been, what, seven years? I think it's probably some strange combination of personal attachment and a slew of random online friendships I made a long time ago. Not that I maintain them very much! :/
As I reread the topic I'm starting to ask myself if my previous post was related to the question.