WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?

author=pianotm
That's because a screen doesn't judge you.

I'm now imagining a cyber-punk future filled with judgmental screens. You try to watch some silly YT video and its all "is THIS what you do with your time?"; the porn industry has entirely vanished; internet-tough-guys are an endangered species; no one even wants to use their computers or watch TV anymore, and instead pour all their free time in to working overtime for the glory of the State...

Truly dark times indeed...

author=kentona

author=unity

author=kentona
suicide is so fucking selfish

-_- True or not, that sentiment isn't helpful towards a suicidal person. It will come off as "Hey, don't die, because it would be really inconvenient and painful for everyone else. You should live for the sole reason that your death would be selfish." Which, if the pain of living is already bad enough to the point where you want to end everything, isn't much of a comfort at all.

Or it can come across as "fuck, you're right. I am dwelling so much on my self and my misery and situation, that I have been unable to see past that. Thank you for helping me."

Also, if you are getting defensive about being pointed out how selfish it is, then you still have some sense of self-worth. Think on it.

EDIT: This is the first time I've come back since last night and seeing this post reminded me of some bitchy kids on Runescape saying shit. That's the only reason I posted the above. From now on:

author=Liberty
Whoa, chill!

Have I become the new public enemy #1? This is like the third time in the past 24 hours that you've felt the need to reel me back in.

Watch out, Craze, I'm gunnin' for ya.

It's like we were meant to be. :3

Hurry up with that Valentine's game so I can date you already. X3


Indeed, it's from Link's Awakening.

The chain-chomp from Link's Awakening is like the best thing ever. I think its name was Bow-Wow or something?

Link's Awakening was my favorite Zelda game. You should definitely check it out.

As far as me and suicide goes... I won't lie, I've contemplated it as a teenager a few times and maybe even once as an adult. It's never a good idea, since you're taking your own life, that much is obvious. But it all seems to depend on how your life as a whole.

I'm not saying that your own world is the main deciding factor of whether you have a reason to live or not, but for certain people, it can be. Say you have a lot of people that love you (whether online or offline), you overall have all the stuff you could ever want and you're generally a happy person. That's pretty much what I am. I've had to fight for some of the shit I've had, yes, and it's overall been a very difficult road to get to where I am. But I'm ultimately happy; right now, I have no reason to even think about killing myself. I have friends, a wonderful family, all the games, books, DVDs and other possessions I could possibly want, a whole well of untapped potential I'm just itching to get into, and whatever else.

Though, for people with really difficult, empty lives, it's admittingly more difficult for them to resist negative thoughts. Some people really aren't as lucky as others would like them to believe; they don't have a lot of friends, they're poor, their family life is in shambles, and they don't have a lot of opportunities.

But, in a lot of cases, you can make anything happen if you put your mind to it and give it effort. It also helps to be a bit open-minded about treatment. Sure, you know yourself more than anyone else, but occasionally a professional helper might be able to say a few things that apply to you that you would never think would.

What I'm saying is is that we can all agree that life is tough; but sometimes it's only as tough as you make it.

What is causing the pain in your life? Really? And not just the things that hurt you in the moment. You mentioned the women you love. Why can't you be together? And if it's a good reason (and not just because you're being too chickenshit to ask her out), is it worth dwelling on? As they say, there are plenty of fish in the sea. There's also a whole ocean of possibilities, and clearly your creativity means something to you.

Yes, well, we run into a problem in this specific regard. I don't know if I would say that I dwell on the issue, rather, I am fairly constantly reminded of it and bad at dealing with it. I mean, I really would rather spare everybody the spiel again, but I guess I have to explain so we can be clear on the issue at hand.

I'm a Xenophile, so it isn't a matter of not being able to ask somebody out, or, I guess it actually is, but in a different way. The people I desire don't exist, right? Because they aren't Human beings, they're other species that aren't actually real. Short of First Contact happening very soon and somehow not resulting in immediate problems I'm sort of out of luck.

I don't really intend to dwell on it, in fact, I'm usually pretty happy about it, all things considered. Sometimes things just hit you the wrong way, you know? The morning of that drunken rant was terrible in that exact regard. Pretty much everything went wrong and it really overwhelmed me., which doesn't often happen. Sure, I might just get sort of pissy about it some days, or feel lonely or whatever, but I've learned to funnel those feelings into my games, art, writing, etc. I need to make use of them somehow, and being productive is a good way to cheer myself up.

What truly makes you happy? And why don't you engage in those things more? Or do you not have an answer? Life is what we make of it. It's up to all of us to live our lives in a way that reflects our own special joys.

Building stories, characters and worlds for games makes me happy. I can lose myself in those fantasies and all the troubles of the real world wash away. Perhaps that's not healthy, but I don't really know, I love being able to put myself into another world like that. When I design I create worlds that I would want to live in, because it makes me happy to think about them.

The biggest bonus is that seeing those worlds come alive in a game is incredible. For someone like me, it's akin to creating life. If I can give the characters I create an existence, a place to belong... I guess I feel good about it, because I associate far more directly with fictional characters than most people do. I feel like I failed if I don't give the people I create a chance to exist.

Anyways, I'm feeling really good right now. Me and my room mate just did a script reading for our next project, and it looks like everything is good to go. Fairly soon we'll be working on a prototype, which means I get to make a whole bunch of art, which is fantastic. After such a long time spent throwing ideas at the wall it feels really good for one to stick.

author=unity
The chain-chomp from Link's Awakening is like the best thing ever. I think its name was Bow-Wow or something?

Yes, that's Bow-Wow, and you get to take him for a walk. No need to worry about enemies; Bow-Wow eats them and he's indestructible.