KEF'S PROFILE

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I agree with Ciel. While the effects of bad human relationships are mostly subconscious, it is still a stupid thing to get hung up on, and I find it immensely childish when people don't take personal responsibility for their issues. You might say 'well it's not like they can help it', but if I can grow past 99% of it then so can anyone.

My relationship with my mom was distant too (though she didn't abandon the family, and in fact worked very hard to support us), and I only recently became able to speak frankly to her, but I turned out better than most if I do say so myself.

I dwelled on the situation a lot when I was a kid, and I was a bit awkward until partway through HS, but eventually I just said to myself 'I can't let some dirtbag influence who I am' and forced myself to deal with all the little hang-ups, from trust-in-relationship issues to low self-confidence, in any way I could. It took work, but I got over all those humps.

Then again, the very fact that I don't really trust people older than me now, and my general don't-need-anyone-I-can-do-this-myself attitude, might be the remnants of all that, after all ^^

i also might be an utter psychopath; this bears more research

Well see there is a difference between 'my mom/dad is absent/a deadbeat so I'm gonna feel sorry for myself too!' and 'my mom/dad is absent/a deadbeat so this might have a negative impact on my development/personality but I'll be damned if I don't try to fix it'.