WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT RIGHT NOW?

I had no idea what this Retron-5 thing was until just now, and I have to say, that is an insanely good gift. I'd love to have one of those in my life. I'd love to have a girlfriend like that, too... Ahh. Neither is going to happen. Sad feels.

author=Linkis
ah gees, all you guys got great presents and all I got was coal and a lump of poop to clean up from my cat :(

Don't worry, I got that from my cat, too. I just love it when she shits NEXT to the litter box. Or when she's feeling nostalgic and takes a dump where her litter box used to be like 5 years ago.

author=pianotm
I guess I should say, I got a variety pack of Mexican hot sauces.

Ugh. Just thinking about that gives me heartburn.

author=Yellow Magic
#NotAllRats

#MissingThePoint

author=Corfaisus

author=Yellow Magic
#NotAllRats

#MissingThePoint

I would have preferred #RatGate to be honest.

Apparently, my PSP randomly decided that it doesn't want to read memory cards! I looked at the troubleshooting booklet (Who the hell does that, right?), and the only suggestion I saw was to take out the card, and re-insert it. Which I had already done on multiple occasion with no effect.

Not sure what my next move is yet.

Just used a free ticket/popcorn/pop voucher from my grandpa for Xmas to go see Hobbit 3. Start up the steps to the best seat in the house. Trip on the second step, popcorn everywhere. Paid $2 extra for butter. Yeah, blah. Great start to this memory.

author=pianotm

author=Pizza

author=Corfaisus

author=Yellow Magic
#NotAllRats

#MissingThePoint

I would have preferred #RatGate to be honest.

Recent research shows the Watergate connection is no longer relevant to modern culture. How about #RatLivesMatter?

#RatLove2015? If I was up on Twitter trends I'd make more jokes about it, but unfortunately my Twitter pages are simply lying in wait for when I go commercial.

On an unrelated topic...

I can't shake a lot of bad feelings lately. I don't know why. I keep thinking about things like lobotomies, changing people and erasing their knowledge of ever being different. How fragile identity is. I don't intend to be melodramatic, but it's been stuck on my mind, for lack of a better term. I'm trying to work a lot of these thoughts and feelings into my next project, so I can analyze and possibly dispel them.

Last night I had some fucked up yet brief night terror of sorts. I saw images of what looked like a rotting turkey, but it was still alive, and cooked on the outside. People were pulling it apart, ripping its chest open, the meat inside only half cooked, the body still sustaining its own life. The thoughts of devouring what gave other creatures life energy entered my mind. It was pretty fucked up, even if it technically counts as a Christmas dream induced by holiday dinner. I guess that's what you get for going to sleep with weed still in your system though.

I personally wouldn't look too deep into a fucking turkey dream though. I'm guessing my restless nights have been caused by the sudden influx of a shitty Christmastime diet. I've actually been drinking soda regularly. My post Christmas diet plans are going to be a godsend.

On the plus side, the previous night's dream was about Freya, even if I was so drunk that I woke up without a single concrete memory of it. I think I can reasonably assume though, since she was already in my head the second I awoke.

I think some of my bad mood has been caused, yet again, by my failure (in my mind) to develop enough of my "dream project". The game has been with me for so many years that the characters within have become extremely real to me, and now when I fail to do "enough good" with the idea it's like I personally failed my friends or something.

I guess I'm just a nutcase in the end of things. In any case, this topic has been a very helpful place for me to let off all this accumulated steam.

Ouch. I pray that you'll stop having terrible dreams. I pray that you'll find the solution to your worries and, if so, that you'll feel inner peace like never before. I really want you to succeed, Pizza. Make sure you take care of yourself.

i just finished up diabolica's css, more like revised it though. idk i am AWFUL at any sort of design so this was a struggle. not to actually get it done, but to figure out what looked PLEASING to the eyes

Yep. It's what countless artists have done (this particular thing makes me think of like, William Burroughs & his ilk).

I know what you mean, Gourd. Much of my game making has sprung from trying to turn my negative experiences & moods into something positive... like a neat game, haha.

Anyway the problem I have is actually getting to sleep. Lately I'm so riddled with anxiety that it makes it impossible for me to sleep until it's well past dawn. So I guess I'm saying I can relate to your restlessness, Pizza (my diet has gone downhill over the holidays, too + summer has made me lose my appetite for many of the foods I was eating previously like meat & fruit :/ )

Hm, I got the usual Vegetable Noodle soup I get when I go to this nearby Asian restaurant, and normally it's quite tasty, but today, ugh, jesus. It was so salty! The broth literally tasted like saltwater. Oh well...