You ever get that feeling when you been working on your game for so long that just working on it makes you feel nauseous? Like, "Damn it, time to watch this cutscene again for the ten millionth time" or "Fuck, I'm running outta shit for these NPC's to say" or "Time to spend two hours making battle animations" or "Why....isn't this....finished yet?!" Yeah, that's how I'm feeling right this second.

I had this same feeling when I worked on it during 2009's Christmas while trying to get the Christmas demo ready (the one that is currently available). It's weird, I've probably worked on it even longer than I did back then in addition to these past three months, and yet it's not til I'm really close to being finished that I start feeling this way. I feel like I'm inches away, but there's still some of that shit that I really don't want to do (like adding Epoch's new Blade arts to the upgrade menu and finishing the monster notebook and finishing the tutorial book that keeps track of everything). Just thinking about it makes me want to throw up.

Normally, I'd just say, "Fuck this," and move on to something else for awhile, but I honestly just want this to be done as soon as possible because I feel like it's been sitting in my lap forever now. Also, there's definitely stuff I should be spending more time on these days, but I feel like I can't focus with this still unfinished.

I must be fucking crazy to be spending so much time and effort on something that A) isn't earning me any money and B) should be more like a hobby. At what point does something turn from a mere hobby into an obsession? Right now, I just want this to be finished.....