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BizarreMonkey
I'll never change. "Me" is better than your opinion, dummy!
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I Love Cornflakes

I like cornflakes too. But whenever they are on a good special I will buy Froot Loops.

Yum.

They actually aren't at all better nutritionally sans having a bit more sugar. Like they pack in vitamins and all sorts of crazy stuff into cereals nowadays.

What are you thinking about right now?

author=SnowOwl
@BM
Go see a psychiatrist. Your mood swings are faster than sanic.
I have been since the 12th of this month, I'll be going again on the 30th. I have loads to tell and hopefully get me even further towards the not-so-hatey train. I've been enjoying myself immensely the last 4 days making a goofy game.

author=alterego
If you really want to jump into the MV hype, you could download the trial version... Unless you're like me, and are hesitant to even do that right now. Because if you want to make at least a short game with it, you may as well start at the conceptual level first: making notes, drawing concept art, etc. so you can then make the best use of the time you have available. >.<
I just rush into things and I dunno seems to work alright.

RPGMaker MV Community

author=Liberty
Take it elsewhere.
I did. The reason I apologized here was because this thread is where I was the most obnoxious and i wanted to apologize for derailing it in the future first place... by derailing it further-- woops. :o

Screenshot Survival 20XX

SHIT!

Sorry. :o

Screenshot Survival 20XX

author=Frogge
@BM-Hate to admit this but, that actually made me laugh, but that open crack on the wall seems too repeatative, maybe use some different kinds of cracks?(Also why is that hole on the ground continuing on the wall?
Thanks, I'll go see what i can do about that. Also get ready this game, unlike it's past interpretation from 2010, is full of funnies.

I love your avatar, by the way!

The Hole on the ground continuing on the wall is because that how bad it's broken, is that actually a bad practice or was that something you just wanted to ask about?

I could easily change it just not sure if your saying it's a problem.

Alright, since it's a new page here's another one. This one actually inspired by one of RMN's taglines-- you know the one!

I need to go italicize that 'okay', though.

Screenshot Survival 20XX

Wow 41 Notices and I'm pretty sure all of them are from this thread, jegus.

Gearing a demo release for RPG Maker MV.

Looking forward to releasing my first game in MV. PFC progress has halted some, mostly due to current engine limitations that I'll need my programmers to help me out with, and they're at their most effort figuring out how plugins and all work.

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author=JosephSeraph
the eye game is strong

author=JosephSeraph
also

http://i.imgur.com/tO44arr.png
Ahahahahahahahaha.

Ah that was funny.

What are you thinking about right now?

Not sure where else to really post this so here goes.

I've been a dick loads lately, especially here. I'm sorry about that, and I know just saying sorry means nothing, my behaviours should soon enough show change.

I've had a break through... see? Nyah.

Basically it comes down to that every single action in my life had been fueld by my spite, hatred or my own self being cool or some stupid horseshit like that, what if, I just stopped getting worked up and stopped hating?

At first, it was scary, I'd gone about being fueld by spite my whole life, I thought I just-- didn't know how, but I think i was just lying to myself again.

My very problem is that I was more passionate about hating things than liking things, so maybe, I could just care less about hating things?

Heh, yes. I'm feeling good.

I'll be honest, for a while I had lost hope, and was happy to just keep being an angry little curmudgeon the rest of my life. But earlier today, I tried 'liking' a post.

The World didn't end and I admit I was disappointed, but also, it meant that-- wow, who gives a shit?

What was I even trying to prove? I think I wanted to feel important, or that I was special in some way that no one else could be, which is pretty silly, because we're all pretty different in our ways!

I became so eager to show why I was special I began to forget what made me that kind of special in the first place.

Here's an extract from another forum which goes into it some more.
I'm posting here because I'm in a strange place, currently. I don't even know what I think of anything anymore. Things I used to hate are seeming like just void interest. I'm no longer passionate about hating things. I'm not really sure how I feel about that. I sort of want to let it all go, spite has driven me most of my life, but I look where I am, would a different kind of fuel be so bad? Like, one that makes me happy? I think what's really hurt me is how much I've lied to myself into thinking I'm at all important, ever since I got my name out I've become too focused on publicity, not enough on doing what i genuinely just love doing.

Making games.

My feuds with RPGmakerWeb, the whole ruthless position I've kept, it's all so fucking meaningless. The upside is I feel like I'm on the verge of a breakthrough, I'm not sure when or how such breakthrough will happen, but when it does, I have a feeling I'll be loads happier. The more self-aware you become, the more you begin to hate who you are. We all lie to ourselves to protect us from the horror within. Those who become more aware of that monster begin to really ask the big questions. When the monster answers, it's possible, that one may tame that beast, make it nicer, cooler, less shite. That's my intent, I don't want to hate everything, I want to just be a chill, nice dude who doesn't have a stick up his ass. But as of right now, I don't even know how to do that non-falsely, but I know I can make it through this.

Before you get worried, this isn't depression, quite the opposite. It's all so difficult to explain, but it's like... sincere hope?

I'd lost it, for a long time.... I figured I'd just live out my life being an angry little crudbucket and was more or less fine with that, but now... I feel like-- wow, something. I feel something! On the 30th, I'll be seeing my psychologist again, I have a feeling it will be a good and deep session. My friends say 'yo, a psychologist isn't going to instantly fix all of your problems'. They're right. But I know if I say things like this to them, they have a better chance of helping me nurture my happiness than anyone on the internet or my Mum, though my Mum is extremely good at helping me out, too.

I don't even know what has happened, there's been no flashy impetus... but all my worries are beginning to fade. Was the TPP passed? Did Trump get elected?
Vwoosh, all of that suddenly seems so insignificant. I actually 'liked' a post today. I think that may have helped, letting go of my spite so that I can be alright. Like ahaha what am I even trying to prove by not liking posts even?

This childish infatuation with keeping myself ahead of the ball, it's so silly and yet I've been doing it all my life. I'm gonna just start taking it easy, and worry less about trivial bullshit and more about my direct life stuff.

It's time to be the goof I've always been, it's just been hidden by an aura of smug, which is really silly.
Deep down I am just a goofy fun-loving guy, but I'd let that be entirely masked by a bunch of edgy horseshit that I don't think anyone even liked anyway.

There won't be any more needless posting to say 'i hate things' I'm just gonna be fun and goofy and enjoy myself.

I think my problem was I thought I felt happy by being angry.

Yeah that does sound stupid, huh!

Welp, goodbye anger Biz it's time for fun Biz.

Now I'm off to draw silly things. Deep down I really do like you guys and now I can finally get around to showing it, I've been so on the defensive and it's really stupid so perhaps I'll just, not do that?

What once seemed so hard is now actually really easy. Being nice isn't hard, it's letting your hatred go that can be difficult, not because you don't want to, but because your mental faculties have become so utterly convoluted you literally cannot see that such is all you need to do.

GOD I FEEL SO AMAZING YOU'RE ALL AWESOME AND I LOVE YA'LL SO MUCH HNNNNNG.

Haha, well you all take care, I'm gonna go draw stuff.

RPGMaker MV Community

author=Aegix_Drakan
- When you break the world record for the limbo dance (Ya know, "how low can you go?". GET IT?! :D)
Hahaha, I liked that. Also I gotta say you're a really chill guy.

Also @Everyone in the thread: Apologies about all the mess I've made, I know a sorry ain't gonna do much, which is why I'm glad that I've actually had a breakthrough recently.

@Sgtmettool: You were right! YOU WERE TOTALLY RIGHT AHAHAHAHA.

God I feel so much better. This isn't the place for it, but yeah I'm beginning to get my mental state into the bettering or something.

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Look at this goofy pirate with his false beard.