STORMCROW'S PROFILE

author=kentona
Exactly (or approximately) how expensive would it be to Be Addicted To Marijuana

depends a lot on whether you live in a state where it's legal and whether you have a medical card for that state, but since you asked here are my (sexy?)...statistics:

January: $330
February: $82.19
March: Unrecorded?
April: $173.00
May: $32.00
June: $211.51
July: $74.55
August: $82.00

So the sum was (some unknown amount more than) $985.25 as of Year-To-Date-End-Of-August. The median monthly cost is therefore $140.75.

I am guessing the months where expenses were >$100 are months where like I had to buy a new piece because my cat broke my bong or w/e. That still doesn't really explain January. I think it was in March that I finally got my medical card, I think, and you can see that the monthly expenditures drop dramatically after that...except for June. I have no idea how I managed to spend $211.51 in one month at medical prices.

author=kentona
I Am Somewhat Concerned I May Actually "update" RMN?

fwahahahahahahahahahahaha 24 pages in, thread won, hands down

Wow. In general I'm not very much for name and shame, but by all means name that Discord community so it can be shamed.

Mainly for being FUCKING IDIOTS. I am as code illiterate as one can be and still make video games, but even I can see that YF presents ample proof here that there's no way this was a fucking coincidence. The plugins don't just look exactly the same on the outside, there was a specific idiosyncrasy/quirk of YF's code that was copied over as well.

What kind of troglodytes can perform the mental gymnastics necessary to convince themselves it was "a coincidence" in the face of that?

Er, pardon all my swears unity.

I really don't get why the THIEF has supporters? Even from the least altruistic, most "i-don't-give-a-shit-about-right-and-wrong-i'm-just-looking-out-for-me" ethical position POSSIBLE, you are still siding with someone trying to sell you something over someone that has been GIVING YOU THE SAME EXACT THING FOR FREE. I. Don't. Get. It.

Most entities and mindsets I don't like I can at least understand the root of where they come from: bigotry, authoritarianism, sexism, racism, homophobia, corporations, prudish or puritanical mindsets, laws. But I can't wrap my mind around why, whether the code was stolen or not (and don't get me wrong, it was), there's a loud angry vocal group that apparently wants the $10.00 plugin over the free plugin? I realize I'm belaboring the point--like I do--even if master2015hp DIDN'T STEAL ANYTHING, s/he is still selling for $10.00 a virtually identical plugin to the one that YF's been giving away for free.

This looks fun and fascinating. Rhythm game is not a genre of game I normally play, but I will make an exception and check this out.

Congratulations on making this in Unity. (At least in the eyes of most of the world as RPG Maker is perceived) in just about a year you have surpassed me as a 'real' game dev. :D

Srsly tho, congrats on doing this in a big boy engine, much as I adore my RPG Maker. It would have been so much easier to do this using Moghunter's script. I almost certainly would have done it that way. But you learned a hell of a lot more about game design doing it this way. Smart. The community interaction/quasi-site-event nature of it is also very cool.

And obviously I want to be in it, I mean duh. I just need to think about what avatar/persona/character of myself to put forward.

Edit: I like the Makerscore music notes too!

I put this in Welp, Welp! over General Discussion but only barely. I'm not joking around here, I'm serious about this, it's just not the most serious thing to be serious about, if that makes sense, so I decided not to take it overly seriously and welp it.

I realize that the indie gamedev corner of the "nerd community" shares the "greater nerd community's" tendency towards not drinking or doing drugs. That's fine, your choices are valid, all I ask is that you not judge/get judgy. I cannot stand judgmental people.

A few things that anyone at all connected with cannabis culture in North America knows already:

1) Literally no one has ever died of a marijuana overdose, ever. There seems to BE no LD50 for humans.
2) Marijuana is not at all physically addictive.
3) Marijuana has lots of legitimate medical uses, and even when used purely for recreational purposes, is far healthier than other recreational drugs like alcohol.
4) In spite of all of the above, cannabis is still a Schedule 1 drug in the US, the same as HEROIN, because the US is fucking retarded.

Of those points, it's only the one I've put in my bold that I have any doubts about. Those doubts started nearly a year ago when I learned an acquaintance was in Marijuana Anonymous. I had no idea such an organization existed. Still, I rationalized myself, that only means it's habit forming: addictive is different.

I smoke because I have an incurable autoimmune disorder and marijuana is the only truly helpful short term medicine for it, because of its powerful anti-inflammatory properties. I find THC (not CBD, THC) to be the best short acting anti-inflammatory drug and beat out only by prednisone over all, and believe you me, prednisone while perfectly legal and not at all a "fun" drug comes with its own basket of issues.

I also have a bevy of mental issues, some of which I have been told are endemic to the "millennial" generation, which I've always felt slightly too old to belong to: PTSD, Clinical Anxiety Disorder, Clinical Depression with Suicidal Ideation, Bi-Polar Disorder. (Pretty much everything but ADD and frankly I should have just played along with that too for the adderall.)

I am less confident that marijuana consistently helps with any of these conditions than I am that it retards my immune system's aggressive destruction of my body. There are many reasons for this, some of them Catch-22s. If I smoke (or otherwise ingest) enough cannabis to overcome my social anxiety, for instance, I am now so stoned that it's a bad idea for me to be socializing with people. Marijuana has never particularly helped with my depression, and has mainly just transmuted depression from a feeling of malaise and lack of motivation to do anything to feelings of "fuck it" and "I'm going to sleep" which is at best a lateral move. Marijuana helps with PTSD and other more day-to-day stressors, but again, in a way that favors escapism over actually dealing with things (this isn't a problem in and of itself: see videogames). At best, applying marijuana to a negative headspace is very imprecise, like whacking my brain's crazy center with a bludgeon. It might snap me out of it, it might make it much worse, it might have no effect at all, or most commonly it might have a lateral effect: I feel different, but not better.

I have a medical marijuana card in the state I live in now and I purchase my legal, medical cannabis legally for prices so low that they would have seemed literally miraculous back when I was using the drug illegally in my home state. Marijuana is a heavy part of my creative cycle and has been since 2008.

Most marijuana users know there is something called a "t-break" (t standing for tolerance and/or THC) where basically, you stop using the drug for somewhere between a week and a month and it knocks your tolerance down a lot, so you get high more easily and with less product. I have attempted this time and time again this year but not managed to go more than 3-5 days w/o using.

Even just going off of marijuana for a short time, like three days, can be helpful in this respect. It's not long enough to impact your tolerance but it is long enough for the thc to leave your body, meaning that you can at least fully sober up, and thus the next time you do get high, you'll be much more likely to appreciate it. But even going three days without using is a real challenge for me. I can count the number of mini-breaks I've taken this year on both hands. I've lost count of the number of times I've intended to do

Yesterday I was contemplating a t-break as I so often am. Then I had the thought that Halloween is coming up Thursday, and I'm definitely going to want to get my debauch on Thursday, so this isn't a good week for it, I'll push it back another week, so I smoked last night (I won't say how much I smoked, this is not in the spirit of dudebro braggadocio just that the amount of cannabis I need to effect me is pretty gross). Today I woke up and thought...Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday...perfect for three days to totally sober up and get the THC out of my system before whatever debauchery All Hallows' Eve should bring. And, I thought, I'm very low on flower, so if I smoke up everything I have, then I'll be out, so there will be no temptation to smoke.

And now I am having just-sub-panic levels of anxiety over not having any marijuana* in the house, and seriously considering going to a dispensary tomorrow to get some flower. The idea of having no smokable pot in the house is actually frightening me. I feel like Homer Simpson screaming even louder when the billboard is revealed to say "DIET" and not "DIE".

My forebrain--watchamacallit, ego?--keeps making decisions to stop using, at least temporarily, which are undermined very quickly by my id/subconscious/whatever you want to call it.

That doesn't mean it's addictive, part of my brain shouts, just that it's very, very habit forming and you've formed one hell of a habit. And I have. There are all kinds of activities (like watching anime) that I have done while smoking so many times that it feels weird to do them when not smoking, like I'm missing out on something. Likewise, even if I can't afford to go out on Friday and Saturday nights, part of me still insists that I am young enough that I am still obligated to "party" on those nights, so I wind up staying in and getting wasted. Finally, I seem to have a problem with being sober and lucid in general. On the days when I manage not to smoke pot, my alcohol consumption increases correspondingly so I don't have to face reality. And as alluded to, alcomohol is worse for me on pretty much every level than marijuana which I guess I'm admitting here isn't that great for me either. Marijuana fuels other habits that are bad for me too. Oversleeping and a pattern of extreme binge-eating later night (after unintentionally fasting all day) are the biggest ones.

So if I decide with my conscious mind not to put a chemical in my blood for three measly days and my subconscious mind and body insist that I'm doing it anyway and can't go three lousy days without it, if that is not addiction...then what's the difference?

w/o any moralizing, plz, how concerned about this do you, as internet strangers (and in some cases internet buddies)think should I be? And...advise, if you like?

Um, everyone is allowed to have an opinion but like...if you are a heavy pot smoker or were a heavy pot smoker and cut down, you're more likely to have an informed opinion (duh?).

* I do have concentrates and edibles but neither of those is something you use when you just want to smoke a joint or a bowl, and for me they tend to both fall victim to my high tolerance and contribute substantially to racking up my tolerance.

Related: once a game that's been set to 'Private' in the submissions queue is taken off of private and has (a lot more than) the minimum number of images, is that game page "submitted" to the site? I don't see a separate submit button. This event has a submit button but that's for a download and a) I don't have my demo done yet b) even if I did I don't think I'd be able to upload it before the game page was accepted.

Edit (Related to Related): it seems impossible to add pages to a game page before it's been accepted?