BIZARREMONKEY'S PROFILE

Wow jeez Libby your are ruthless! I like that. Because while harsh, it above all was what made me realize I was the problem.

I guess I just didn't want to face it but I am legitimately a horrible person sometimes. One day I may return, but for now, you don't deserve to have to put up with me. I'm done blaming others, it's all my fault, all of it.

I'll still be lurking and leering, maybe posting once or twice a month, but actively? Hell no.

I can't possibly hope to give feedback on everyone responses, which were warming even when not in my favor, but I will cite some.

Blindmind
When BM posts half a novel after stating he has no time or patience for RMN.. lol.

I treat my time wayyy too seriously, actually. While the course I'm doing is apparently full time, it's 15 hours of a week and it's fun as balls.

I think I was being holier than thou again, I have a very hard time not being like that, and it annoys me. Sorry!

LockeZ
Come back soon! Bring a game with a less MS Painty art style when you do.

You have me on Skype if you want some to talk shop about game design with, without the whole public forum thing.

When I get past this dumb exam I'll definitely think about it!

You know, I couldn't understand the reason why I always dislike it when BM posts but Liberty just summed it up nicely. I need to expand my vocabulary.

Man I never even sensed any negativity from you, I figured you were one of the guys who was like 'oh lol, thats just Biz!'

What's interesting is that if you were to replace "wrong" with "harmful", "vultures" with "bigots", and threw in a "gamer" or two, more people would be willing to look over your tone, and how you conduct yourself, and offer some words of sympathy. I know. I've seen it. If anything, it goes to show the political slant of the forum, for better or for worse...

Stay cool.

I have trouble being humble when I know deep down I'm the asshole. Which is why the note I left was as Libby pointed out, nothing more than bait.

I half expected people wouldn't respond and would just let it die. I underestimated the empathy this place has even for jet-fuel powered hotheads like myself.

Sorry. Was that holier than thou? It wasn't meant to be!

Corfaisus
Squeee!!

You're actually cool, I'm just deluded, sorry for being an ass. Political ignorance is a weakness of mine.

Ignorance is choosing to ignore, which is understandable given politics is so depressing, why do you think so many politicians are bald?

So I'm not insulting you, just letting you know I took your reactions to things wayyyy too far.

No-one believes that. I don't even believe that. That's how bad your posts have been in the past - that that reads as 'oh, normal BM'.

Well it is now!

Forumly speaking, I think?

I dunno, It's so hilariously bad sounding I half expected it was gonna show up as one of the randomized messages below the forum logo.

Like I say a lot of dumb bullshit but that took the cake. Believe me in that i don't believe I'm that good or righteous, it's just a facade I put on to piss people off. Though i don't know why it's still on here, fuck!

You're awfully wordy for being gone~ ;p

My leave posts are my long posts, you know this! You saw that fucking 14 day vacation thread. I know you did, because you posted on it.

God, I hate victim blaming in all it's forms. :/

I hate acting like a victim, because I'm not one. But it is my fault. There was still a lot of annoyance with facing my faults on this matter, which is why the post schizophrenic changed from holier than though to I'm at fault.

Probably the ones you also find not worthy of respect and thus poke over and over again.

Not really, I don't think they even really hate me, I just have bees in my bonnet over nothing, typically the best way I can recognize someone doesn't like me is when they make no effort to even engage me. Because at least if they are taking time out of their lives to tell me I'm an idiot, they care enough to tell me I'm awful.

Or just be Corfaisus and take it like a champ, way to make me look like a sore loser you blue robotic bunny fuck. (I say this as a positive reflection on how you make me look like shit by not only failing to be hooked on my bait, but jumping up on the fucking boat to hug me. Just wow, make me look like a douche why dontcha :P)

Enemy? Are you living in a comic book? There's people you don't like, fair enough, but I doubt anyone would title you their enemy or rival or anything like that.

Wow, you take those words way more seriously than I do.

Your version of hate being different from dislike also baffles me, nothing wrong with it, but to me they are basically the same, measures of "I don't like you". I don't see any as really more severe, it's a blurred line at best.

I don't mention this much, but I have been very antisocial most of my life, so a lot of my "friends" sad as that sounds have been video game characters.

Not trying to justify my use of the word is right or wrong or better or anything, just that I think of them a lot more loosely.

That's the thing about wrods, they're so wishy-washy!

Sorry, but please, grow up. No-one here is out to get you. :/

That isn't even what I meant, but it was a dumb paragraph anyway.

I'd say if someone hates you, you're doing something monumentally wrong.

Um... what?

Like, I know you and I have very different conceptions of hate, but I'm sure every game dev ever gets hate or dislike of some merit.

Every person ever who becomes more than a nobody will get hate, that's not some philosophical bullshit, that's the way the world is.

People have differing opinions, some will cast you into a me-no-likey zone, call it whatever you want, no one is above chagrin.

Pretty sure no-one hates you. They just don't like you

Wow thanks Mum! That makes me feel a lot better! :P

Like I know what you mean but whenever I see a line like this it just makes me giggle like a school girl because of reasons.

Again, no-one fucking hates you. They just don't really like you when you act like an ass!

I'll be working on fixing that, and also posting here very sparingly while I try to learn about this interesting emotion called 'friendship'.

Okay, sorry, that was overdone.

Ooh! I know, I know! Pick me, teacher! Pick me!

That was funny.

How about not talking down to people and deliberately poking at them, back-hand insulting them and acting like you're worth more than they are? That might help juuuuuuust a little. Also, nothing worth having/achieving is ever easy. Changing yourself is going to be hard, but if it's really something you want to happen - being friends with others - then it's something you should consider.

Eheh, I know, I know. It's not even so much changing, as just, letting shit go, i think? I visit five other forums, but there's a clear distinction between how I act here and on them, and it's probably my weird insecure bullshit telling me to deploy a forcefield of smug apathy.

Fucking. Hell. Yeeeeeeeah, because calling someone an imbecellic fuckwit is muuuuuch better than calling them a label or slur! It might not have the ingrained historical insult added in but it's still a fucking insult, ffs. It still fucking hurts people on some kind of level. What about that don't you understand?!

Worst I can remember is idiot, but you make a good point.

Even me, now? Because I would totally understand some sort of anger.

You're anger is cute. And also, you do really have a way of being ruthless, I like that.

I don't know why, but i think it's just one of my weird things, maybe? Tell me to do something nicely, ahahahaha you may as well just give me chocolates at that point.

"Cunt" is a language I understand. I mean you say you are trying your best, hard as i make it, to be cool about things. But that doesn't stop you making me realize, wow fuck... I am a horrible person.

Also you provide me with what I need to do, all I need is for to get over my weird fucking issues and do those things.

Just don't make me out to be your enemy again, okay? I can deal with anger - it's gonna happen sometimes. :/

Lol I didn't even say you, buttmunch!

In fact you're... as fucking bizarre(TM) as this is going to sound, my closest friend on here.

Politeness and respect.

What are those things? They sound fun! I've never heard of them??

(Obviously I'm joking, I will make an effort and will keep making such effort until the sun don't shine and I stop quoting fucking Abba.)

There are times you do, though. There are times you do.

Pfft, like you would know!

And yet here we are, Dramaville.

It could be worse!

Creeeeeeeeepy~

Ahahaha, it wasn't even meant that way! i was just doing the alliteration thing.

Bad Manners

If I wasn't in a mood to better myself and didn't intend to only make a post now and then I'd consider petitioning to have my name changed again.

Good news is if you want I can quote you in my usertitle/donortitle w/e.

it wouldn't be out of making a point this time it'd just be for friendly fun.

author=Corfaisus
God, I've never found anyone else more attractive than I find you right now, BM. Let's find a dark room with a big bed, light some candles and see where it leads.

Let's get to know each other intimately, then I'll come back here and put in a good word for you with the staff. Whadya say?

You don't have to hide behind that mask with me... I know why you lash out like you do; I'm the same way.

Also I'd be totally down with you drawing my cat girl Sarah in your MS-Paint style, but that's a discussion for another time. Call me, we can do an art trade.

Liberty
Creeeeeepy~

Also I like cats and cat girls to a point so sure as long as I don't have to draw her naked or something that would make me probably really uncomfortable.

So with this I'm back, but not gonna be posting a whole lot since there's a lot of bees in the bonnet still and I've got to think about a lot.

Wow fuck I just 'lot' four times in one sentence also sorry for typos.

Edit: And bad grammar, apologies for that too, fuckin oath!

Edit 2: I say this:

So with this I'm back, but not gonna be posting a whole lot since there's a lot of bees in the bonnet still and I've got to think about a lot.

Then virtually the next second carpet bomb the whole site with posts.

I should also practice a little restraint.

Lol, the wrong opinions thing was a joke. I guess that wasn't as obvious as I thought it was.

I guess it could also be seen as bait, curiosity in psychology and all that.

author=Sooz
Yeah, it's other people who are the problem.

author=Bizarre Monkey
Heck, from what I've observed you guys could use a break from me anyway.

I fully recognize I am a large part of the problem. But I didn't leave because of people, I left because I have been neglecting schoolwork. I am still gone, I just wanted to clarify that the reason I say things like what I do is because people who honestly get offended by someone being single-minded care about that someone enough to get irritated.

Lib makes some good points, I do present myself very... obnoxiously, in a lot of cases. I'm not all that bad once you get to know me, and this is where I take fault, I've been very afraid of letting you guys get to know me. Because i respect most of you, for that reason, there's a part of me that wants you to hate me, because I get sick and tired of being expected to live up to people's expectations of me as a person. I have made efforts to be nicer, but ultimately, people won't let things go, or they've been geared to dislike me via natural process.

Some people find me annoying, some people find me great, some find me absolutely contemptible. The trick to one like me is that I get the right kind of people on my side. If you see me as an enemy, then chances are you have been since I first spoke to you. I just have the grace to not waste my time on you in most cases.

Point is. If no one hates you, you're doing something incredibly wrong. Hatred towards me is going to be unavoidable, and I'm used to dealing with a lack of compassion... that isn't what you guys are doing. You do care, because you are responding, rather than letting my topic rot. The fact you care is the reason I took interest in you in the first place.

Let me only assure you that you will achieve nothing by hating me, and I like pretty much all of you, I just have a weird way of showing it.

I am cutting time out of my life to explain this, because I do care on some level. If I didn't, I would remain silent. I'm not asking you to show lenience of mercy, I'm only providing you some insight into why you might dislike me enough to care about me. You want to like me, and I would be down with you liking me, I just... need some time to think about how that can be easy for both of us. I have a very hard time being sentimental, and while I may regularly insult people, I don't often use labels or slurs to do it, huh?

I am not mad with any of you, I just don't understand much of any of you, yet. And until I do, it will be difficult for me to not maintain the wall of steel facade that generates the behaviors you may not appreciate.

I don't do anything just to be an asshole, there are multiple factors to why I act like I do, of course; I don't expect you to understand, that's why I'm telling you now. It was in the interest of not bringing drama that I didn't go into this earlier, but I think looking back had I gone into this when I first joined the forum back in 2013 it would have dispelled a lot of the negativity and drama I would cause later.

ITT: I blame myself for virtually everything. I'll be back in a week or so since my assignments will be off then. While I may not respond, I am lurking, leering and listening.

author=Link_2112
Welcome to RMN, post lots

It took so much restraint and self-control not to respond to this, that's how funny I found it.

author=zacheatscrackers
That KH music.

Looks pretty fun overall, BM. I like the bullet hell-ish blue fireball attack Esperia does the most, I think. Something that's kind of bugging me, though... the red blocks around her when she preps for moves look rather odd. Is that intentional, by chance?

Unlike in previous fights where she used the attack based on the players position and facing, in this scenario she does it based on her own events position, but not facing. I'll likely make it so it's based on her direction too. If you mean, they just look odd because they are flat red squares/tiles, yeah, that's intentional, conveying danger-zone information is more important than artistic fidelity.

Haha, the Kingdom Hearts music I thought fit well for the time being, seeing as in that fight with Xemnas he does a similar attack. In the actual version it will most likely use The Horror Within.

I am. I've accepted the warn humbly, take a compliment now and then, jeez! I don't dispense them often!

Also, I have in the past given valid and in-depth points of discussion, I gave up on doing that because it's as pointless as you deem this entire thread, you are just one person responsible for proving that. I'm not here to lecture you, I learned a long time ago to not waste time on self-righteous idiots.

No offense meant, but you are a waste of time, breath and energy. My efforts would be better spent on ears, not brick walls trying to pose as receptors for knowledge.

author=WeabooBaBe
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WHEN I GROW UP I WANNA...

Grow a pussy?

Sorry.